Middle Summer: no crisis here...

I really should be back outside but I just popped in from working on the flowers to grab a bite and dink around a little bit on the computer. Not that I don't do enough dinking around here I just haven't blogged for about two weeks and figured it was time.

In one week Kieran, his sister Katie and I will be heading up the Ptarmigan trail to the crater of Mount St. Helens. I am overwhelmed thinking about it. Really very very excited but also a little scared. I believe I'm ready for it physically; Kieran and I have been hiking like nobodies business lately to prepare ourselves. I just know that sometimes I can really psych myself out. What is that about? That little voice that tells us we can't do something, that we're not good enough, we will fail (and that failure is a bad thing)?

Certainly, you want to approach certain things with a fair amount of caution to be safe. Occasionally, I've ignored the voice (even when it was screaming) and I've been burned. (old boyfriends and job situations mostly :) )

Sometimes my voice just goes overboard. Sometimes, I need to ignore that voice. I've been doing the warm up hikes- mostly with fantastic results. I have most of my gear ready to go. I can do this!

I started this blog (on blogger.com) early this Spring because I was fed up with pessimisim. I felt more of a need to emphasize what is super good and right in our world. Sometimes little stuff, sometimes more important big stuff. It's time to refocus on that. Many of my friends who had lost jobs have new exciting prospects to approach this Fall. They feel a renewal of purpose and direction. A new optimism. I want to bottle that...that surge of self confidence.

I believe there are parallels between my friends and their job situations and me and my mountain. I'm not going to let this mountain kick my tush. I know going into this that I'm going to cry (cuz I'm a freakin' baby) and I know I'm going to make it to the top and back. That little voice is going to have to take a break for a bit. I've got work to do.