Why pray?

 Inhale, I'm not at my most stable tonight, I'm tired and it's been a stressful week.  I want to binge eat comfort food and red wine like I don't have to work in the morning, but I do.  I watch the news, I don't know why.  I feel like crying.  Not sure what will bring me relief.  I try to read to distract myself and I'm too distracted.  Going to bed this early will have me awake in the middle of the night staring at the ceiling.  Now is the time I need to meditate.  These are the times I need to pray.  I don't expect instantaneous answers, miracles aren't magic.   But a still quiet voice in my heart calms.  Reminds me and my patience re-appears.  I don't need all of the answers, I know they will come.  I lament, I request, I reconcile, I praise.  Exhale.